So, i have been thinking. Every day i sit in this chair, or lay in that bed, and think. "They have no idea". I hate not being who i am. I hate my parents KNOWING they dont know who i am. I see kidsl ie to their parents, and mumble how they hate them. But when it comes down to it. I love my parents. And well, Chance treats his mother with more respect with anyone i've ever met. And she knows what he does on the weekends. Even if it gets me grounded, i wanna be my own person. I want them to understand. I want to connect with the two people i owe everything to. Because, maybe if i explain that part of my life consists of drinking, and parties, and girls, i can explain easier that its not everything. i can point out i dont smoke weed, cant i? I can point out that i have always held my alcohol. And never done anything too rash. I'm just, i'm tired of not being who i am to everyone. I love my life. But at home, i feel like i need to escape. I'm not expecting to them to say its good that i drink. But ya know, they will understand some things possibly. Idk, i might not do it.
but i am so close to just being like, Mom. We gotta talk.
If i do this, it will take every bit of bravery i can ever muster up.
GregGALAXY
- GregGALAXY
- I am not simple. But i wish to be. I am not complex, but i wish to be. I am not bitter, i am just not content.
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that takes a lot greg. i know that my mom knows most of the shit i do, but we never come out and talk about it, because i've heard her past and i know she was nothing like this, and i'm scared of her reaction to knowing that i am. if you do do it greg, i'm gonna be ridiculously proud of you. that sounds stupid, but it's true. you'd definitely gain a lot of my respect, because that's a ballsy move, and you're right, it does take a lot of bravery and courage. i love you bestie <3
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