Ghost of a Good Thing?

I'm sick of everyday being hard now. Since the incident everything has gone down hill. I've been looking at old twitters. February 20th i wrote "Goodbye Bad Days! :)" Because there had truly only been happiness in my life. February 22nd, i wrote "Welcome Back Bad Days". And since then everyone has had some kind of hardship in their life. Honestly, the progression of mankind is often so futile, so insignificant, so small that the tiniest speed bump can throw it away. As if one good day was the helix we needed in our DNA strand to evolve, but we missed it. I think i am going to give up on love. Because i have fallen so hard for this girl and still i get rejected every day i speak to her. As if she has to time for me. These car keeps crashing in my mind. A fast paced, abrupt meltdown in which the driver loses all control. The sad part is i'm actually TRYING to be happy lately. I don't want poor pitiful me. I think i am going to read the entire bible. Never have. but maybe finding god is all i need. Well, i'm going to clean my room all night. Wish me luck. Ya know, with the living part.